Wash over me

I’m a weak and deeply flawed man…..

Listening to “Hard Sun” from the soundtrack to the movie “Into The Wild”  I encountered the most powerfull Thin~Space I have experienced is a long time.

In a gestalt of music and voice i encounter God and myself in the rawness that can only lead to tears.

I long to share the depth and wealth of emotion with you dear reader, but it remains eternally locked in my being. ? . .

        ~   Depth of soul  
                                             ~  rationalization None
            ~  tears Flow
                        ~ Realizaitons appearent
   ~  Live         

                                                       ~ Frailty
             ~ death
                                 ~ Cyclic
                                                     ~ Strength
                                                ~Uncertainty
                                ~ GRANDURE
                    ~ Beauty
                                ~ Love
                                          ~ Risk
                                                     ~ Pain
                        ALL ONE !

As so many before me, I have desired to follow Christ in all I do and say. To serve him from my being. The path of my life attests to the effort and struggle through these long years.

Yet -  in a moment -  I know that I have betrayed HIM in all that I am and have done.

Self-willed, walking in the light yet fearful to totally let go.  Frozen in the ivory tower of self.

Once I walked in the newness of freedom . . .  now I wallow in comfort . . . a middle-class altar to self that we “American Dream” of.

a spark burns white hot in my soul …  go and experience the ALL … Christ …. Tears flow.

Impossibilities unfold as sails on a tall ship.

Courage ~ Faith ~ Renewal ~ Wash over me 

Comments

[given 55]

Good thing God is a God of second chances. Great post. I realized that I am the chief of all sinners and at every corner I see the flaws. I'm so grateful that God continues to use us in our filthy state.

[vicki]

i resonate with you brother...just a sliver of fear or reluctance to give all is enough to us back from receiving His full healing power and manifesting His return. And the time calls us Now. i pray for our courage, faith, trust and ever-expanding Love.