Yesterday was a Lazy day. i just did not feel like job hunting or even blogging. i just sat in front of the idiot box (Television) and watched a few DVD's. (i found a great caricature that shows my mood well.) We don't have cable or an antenna so we check out movies at the local library. i felt like an addict going on a binge. Wasted a whole day but surprisingly it did get me thinking. While watching Solaris, one of the concepts of the movie sent me into a rather philosophical funk.
In the movie, (i want to find the book) the main characters wife had died some years earlier. Upon his arrival at Solaris, his wife is recreated as a physical being and visits him. Here is the interesting part. The recreated wife is an imperfect copy. Coming from his memories, she is not an exact copy of his wife. She is a copy of the memory of his wife plus something more. To compound the issue, she becomes conscious that she is not the woman he remembers and is not even human. This tension resolves itself by the copy seeking it's own destruction. In a conversation with the main character she states, "I'm suicidal because that is how you remembered me."
That line sent my brain into overdrive. The mystery of perception and relationship ~ your memory of a person is not the person but a perceptual construct you have created. We often think we know someone. Do we really know them or do we only know a construct we have created in our memory? How well does our mental construct of a person cohere with who they are? Do we even have an accurate memory of who we are? Do you? Is a memory of our experience all we have? Is reality beyond memory, language construction, symbolic representations and thought?
What about our mental image of God? We all have a notion of what She is like. Do we actually believe that our perception is what He is? If we do, is that idolatry? What other issues of faith does this line of thinking bring up?
i'm currently rummaging through the philosophy section of my personal library ~ Reading ~ pondering ~ praying ~ reading ~ pondering some more. . .
i am sure i'll be posting about this stuff in the months to come.